Shame is a bitch and for the longest time I refused to admit I had plenty of it withing. I covered it up with arrogance, achievement and perfectionism. I kept circling around it, not willing to step in and deal with it. I guess I didn’t know how.
Turns out I could dismantle shame by looking at myself as not a victim but a survivor, by owning my story and bringing it to light, by giving it the attention it craved and needed in order to finally allow me to let go.
As I walked through the swamplands of my soul with self-compassion and self-acceptance, I saw shame for what it was – a bunch of stories created many years ago by many different people, stories I accepted and carried around, stories that had little to do with the real me.
Shame was nothing but a load of paralyzing garbage I identified with for decades!
Happiness comes when you free yourself from shame (tweet this)
Happiness has always been there, waiting for me to release all the shame and blame, accept the loss, forgive, and realize we are all doing the best we can!
Breathe in the boundless power of the Universe
Breathe out all that is harmful to me
Breathe in fresh air into my lungs
Breathe out stale air now
Breathe in the potential for love
Breathe out fear, pain and anxiety
Breathe in gratitude, peace and joy
Breathe out negativity, stress and tension
Breathe in my child’s laughter
Breathe out his temper tantrums
Breathe in the beauty of my garden after the rain
Breathe out the guilty feeling over taking time for myself
Breathe in running into a friend at the deli counter
Breathe out the frustration over client’s check bouncing
Breathe in clarity and understanding
Breathe out perfection and delusions
Breathe in love
Breathe out fear
Drawing has become a spiritual practice for me. I draw to calm the mind, create a nurturing daily ritual and re-discover the world around & within me. Whether I have 5 minutes or an hour, I put my to-do list aside and head to the loft – my art studio, my sanctuary – to draw, slow down, recharge.
I usually don’t plan much ahead, I just grab the ink pen & pad and with that single mark get started on a new adventure. It is my meditation, part of my WELLth resolution, the time when I get out of my head and enjoy the present moment of spontaneous and mindful creation with my own hands.
Daily Drawing Practice: January Round Up
Here’s a quick view of what I’ve been up to in January
Finally, my Valentine postcard
Do you keep a drawing book, sketchbook or an art journal?
Please share a link to your art – I’m curious about your adventures in art and creativity.
So I designed a little funky card for this year’s Valentine’s Day. You can get it here. This is the extent to which I’m going to celebrate Valentine’s Day this year (I’m still recovering from December).
Such a grouch; I think the whale and I are related!
My gratitude practice has become an integral part of my daily experience. Since I journal at the end of each day, it makes me focus on all the good things I might have otherwise not even notice, or simply take for granted. The simple act of writing down the things for which I’m grateful for – as opposed to just thinking about them – makes me more aware of them, deepening their emotional impact.
Yes, sometimes I’m really tired and feel like it’s just another things on my to-do list, but truth be told, I’ve never regretted pushing myself to do it anyway – it just makes me feel good. And it’s great for sleep too. So, onward we go.
Finding Grace in Every Day #17
Today I am thankful for:
- Crispy winter morning air that makes me feel energized and alive
- Home made donuts that taste so good you can’t stop yourself from eating “just one more” again and again
- My new coffee/tea percolator serving me liquid
crack love as I work
- Cozying up on the sofa at the end of each day with the most important people in my life
- Sunny Sunday stroll in the park with Roxy (it was nearly 70 degrees!!!)
- Watching kids play street hockey with a local teen – he’s a great role model for my boys
- Bubble baths by candlelight when the house is all peaceful and quiet
- Soft snow collecting on the window sill in the morning, then quickly melting away in the midday sun
- Boys shoveling our elderly neighbor driveway last weekend
- Starry skies I escape to after I put kids to bed – the best way to quickly relax after a long day
- Calming yoga practice in the comfort of my own home
- Booking camping trips for the summer – so excited for a new season of swimming, hiking, and just being in nature
- Daily fruit smoothies courtesy of my 9 yo budding culinary star
- Friday night dance parties full of impressive dance moves, ton of belly laughs, and general shenanigans all around
- Hubby surprising me with a oh-so-heavenly tiramisu cake
- Getting better at staying mindful in stressful situations
- Roxy putting her head on my lap while I meditate
- My middle kid blossoming beyond my expectations in the last few months
- My new go-to snack, dill pickle sunflower seeds
What are you thankful for?